again i refuse to accept this reality. this isnt wad i wanted. if only i could turn back time, i'd be rid of a fair lot of thoughts really. a rash act u call it? its an act i definitely regretted. im in denial.. i dont know wad to think or do. the way the situation is rite now, its making me rather stressed. ahhh.. i feel real stupid. how m i to make this better, how m i to make myself feel better. enlighten me please.. i need a breather.

its times like this when crying works best. its not the most ideal choice, but it helps in a way or another.

ive been told to not think too much loadsa times. yes i understand. however, its not that easy to control one's thoughts is it. my thoughts run unknowingly all the time, i think i might just get some sorta depression one day. but.. dont think im not trying. i m.. give me time.

learn to detach? :)

my plan to let loose wont be hitting off anytime soon. i do wan to badly but fate didnt allow me to. do u know how much i wan to get away? its way more than u would imagine. it doesnt seem to be a wan anymore, its a need.

the blues n whites, i'll come soon. to be suspended in mid air, i'd love to. a sightly peaceful view, its more than i need. im in search of serenity.

lets get on to the goin-ons.. :)

ive been told for the 10000th time ' dont think too much' today. yes, i hear u mommy. we talk big too often, lets try cutting down. WE hav excellent photography skills alrite, not just U ;)

snails brought my nails unsightly air bubbles. hav i told u i love late nights? it brews pimples tho.. hav one brewing rite now =/

meeting up with the KCians went good. the die-die-must-take neoprints haha drinking soon yes? :)

:D

i hate making decisions. and im tired.

took a picture / 3:20 AM