Sunday, February 05, 2006
went to aunty mommy's place ytd! :) so glad to see them again. we finally went over aft much days of planning to find a day tt we all were free. aunty mommy n marvin gorgor was home. uncle papa wasnt tho, he was at church but came back soon aft. my parents started chatting with them n the topics to talk abt nv seemed to end. there was just so much to say. n tt was a really nice sight. tho they r just a family tt babysitted my bros n i when we were babies, i feel as tho they r one of my family. tho we just visited them, i still miss them as much. there's always tt hope of seeing them. words hav kinda dissappeared btw marvin n sebastian gorgor tho, it feels weird as we were really close in the past but things seem to have change. well, i will try. still rmb i was this small boyish girl, always staying over at aunty mommy's place, n they will always bring me out to play, eat. miss those times. i would really like to be able to stayover at their place again. spent more time with them n all. :) soon i guess, soon. when i have the courage to actually ask tt. anw! i had fun there! looking forward to my next visit with my cake! ;)
-love :)
sigh. exams r coming. n i haven even started studying. SIGH. n its coming in a wk or so? =O been much more slack than i was in sem1. how m i gonna attain my intended gpa this way? SIGH. im so dead. dont even know if i'll be able to pass all my modules. cos i haven been attacding lects for 1082 at all, in the exception of the first one. other than tt, im sorry but i didnt attend any of it. u can ask me.. wads 1082 abt? n i'll u.. I DUNNO! as for 1029, hahaha tho i've been attanding lects, i dont actually know wad its abt too. cos i was not paying any attention at all. slping? chatting? eating? u name it n i've done it. anything but listening. 1034, bioscience, i dun even wanna talk abt it. left with a week, gonna hafta start already or im doomed. SIGH.right aft the exams would be attachment. sigh, i really dreading it. its so fast! we just ended one 2wks ago n now we've got to back. ='( n its gonna be diff this time. it'll be much busier. so busy all our legs r gonna die. n there'll be no air-con too, it'll be so humid n we'll be sweating like pigs. n shanel's not gonna be wit us anymore. sigh. see how diff it'll be? now i dun even know if i really wanna be a nurse anymore. its hard. im so afraid, sometimes i dun even know wad im doin. its goin so fast. FAST. right aft the attachment, we're gonna be yr2s. see how fast it is? im starting to think do i really wanna be one. i cant back out now tho, so gonna get it if i do. sigh.was supposed to do brownie cheesecake on fri! but i couldnt find cream cheese. oh.. i tell u. i was sooooooooo unlucky on fri! like UNLUCKY. kept losing n losing. lost till i had to give a pocky away! i've got no more pocky at home now. the previous ones were all given away. gotta top up! ok, back to my cheese cake, think i'll do it this wk. do it b4 sch ends n let my peepz try it! hoping it will turn out tho, cos im not good with the beating of the mix. oh yes, gotta get cream cheese too, sigh. will get it today i guess. gonna help out at a old folks home with janis n shanel later on. its gonna e fun! haha will be a ble to practise my dialect again. haha cantonese.. i really wanna learn u know! but its hard. well, we'll see how today goes n i'll update :)i've come to discover some things abt myself. things i need to change. factors i hate very much. it will take time but i hafta. or it'll cause me to lose things important to me. i've tried but its hard. i'll try harder.
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