Saturday, January 07, 2006
polyclinic attachment is over!
however.. we have 2 more wks of hosp attachment to go.
we had fun at the polyclinic i guess. tho we would be so tired everyday. but its ok i guess, learnt new things. learnt how a polyclinic is like. different stuffs, different ppl.
sem exams r nearing. whao.. onli when i recieved the msg did i feel the anxiety. i haven started studying yet. some of them have of cos. when u actually hear the saying, 'i studied bioscience ytd'. ur heart starts to beat faster. thinking.. 'oh shoots! they have started n here i m lazying ard'. sigh.. who can u blame, no one else but urself.
many thoughts keep running thru my mind. thinking why do i have such feelings. thinking is it me only who has it. or do others have it too. but i do think im the only one. why is tt so. why r these feelings even there. they shldnt be. for they r gonna cause me to lose things. things dear to me. i try to not think of them but they always seem to come back.
some of u read this, n think, nessa's trying to be chimp. nessa's acting.
den i guess.. do u really know me aft all?
its one wk into the new yr.
n chinese new year is nearing! the 29th! i cant wait!
i wanna buy clothes n other stuffs!
wanna cut my hair, dye my hair.
perm my hair. (but... i'll hafta wait!)
chinese new year.. a ocasion i love yet dislike at the same time.
contradicting huh?
well, u see.. some days im at a place where im a loner. i do not talk to anyone, n no one talks to me. so.. im a loner!
haha i used to think i was the only one. haha but now, i have found someone else who's in the same boat as me!
haha guess who?!
let me tell u.. the one n only
VEG VAINPOT.
someone who loves the mirror. she can look in it 24/7. she LOVES it!
other days.. im fine! haha normal.
therefore, tt is why i dislike CNY.
im so not done with those mags in my room. lousy. dun seem to be clearing it properly at all. hiyz, i'll TRY to do it later la. if i rmb! whole room's in a total mess, the floor, table, everywhere!
gonna try to live HEALTHLY during attachment. ok, not just during attachment but from now on. shanel managed to lose weight. aiyaya. how abt me?! nah.. i didnt! its still the same! 44+kg. so dissappointing. wahaha n im eating apple pie from macs later! im sooo dieting! wahaha ok, i shall start from tmr la. try to have beancurd everyday during attachment instead of a full noodle or rice meal. n an apple a day. drinks lotsa water to clear those toxins. no eating of fried stuffs. n if i do, just be more healthy the next day, NEVER NEVER follow shanel n dap the oil away.
ok.. i'll try to attain my ideal wt. i will! i know i will! ;)
yet another of my resolutions.try not to be so indecisive.
took a picture / 2:23 PM
